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Date:     2024-01-29
Title:    "What do you mean by" #0066 with Faith Nicole Ledford
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Church:   What Do You Mean By
Type:     Church Service
Duration: 1h 19m
Language: English
URL:      https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fBrK88jZ0pw
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mean by number 66 what we talk about I have no idea I got literally no clue what we're talking about but we have faith in Nicole's guest so once she's able to join we'll be this is the time that she was available so that's why we're having it at this time of night what's up Addison how's it going hey guys welcome to the live how's it going one second back yeah I I've got absolutely no clue what I'm going to talk about tonight nothing in the slightest this is completely improvised so should be fun what's up Sarah cross Emma Sanger Faith Johnson Anonymous Noah Luke lamu cheffy what's up Ben Browning welcome to life we go as we go all right attempt hopefully everybody's having a great night canot believe I'm doing this but I'm doing it hi how's it going it's going good we okay I'm have to hold my phone CU I literally just got here so I'm having to hold it very awkwardly right now all right cool are you ready yeah right s I'm gonna pray and then I'll ask you who you are and all that okay all right cool all right deal Jesus thank you for this night thank you for the live platform we please give us courage and strength to do this live just the way you want us to come all the nerve Lord and help it to be an edifying time we ask it all in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ amen all right so who are you why are you here first of all you know who I am I know who you are but 22 other people don't okay well I am Faith a lot of people know me as Levi's sister Levi leedford so yeah that's a lot that's how a lot of people know me how you go by faith interesting no I go by George George oh okay I gu that works all right so Faith nice to meet you Faith so where are you from Carolina North Carolina you know I'm not gonna take this seriously you know I'm gonna say space and like spit off all these random answers okay all right cool someone says hi George there you go already learning see no they're gonna learn they're gonna learn how awkward I really am oh it's been really rainy so my hair is all frizzed up okay so what do you want to talk about I don't know David get a name right Faith okay fair enough I think I've known you like 10 years um 11 been Ser it's been a we've know each other for pretty well I'd say be too okay I'll get right into a question I Googled questions to ask a girl on a podcast so here we go okay okay are you ready no this is number 66 so we got this what do you mean by number 66 what do people or actually so you go to about the Josh Bennetts right no oh I mean I didn't mean like that no um no I go to uh brother Knights brother Adam Knights brother ad Knights very cool okay all right perfect so are you in the why are you here I'll ask you this question why are you in the message why am the message oh yeah how old are you too people want to know how old you [Music] are okay um well believe it or not I just turned 30 you just turned 30 well happy birthday you guys start drinking diet soda now like me uh I actually don't like soda well I like I don't like um I'm trying to quit soda all together oh that's good so 30 in the message a lot of people just leave when they turn 18 what has kept you in this message why are you in the message um honestly I've been in and out I was raised right on the message um but I have been kind of in and out I'm a I'm ashamed to say but um every Christian has a backstory every Christian has um things that they're not proud of honestly what has kept me in the message um is my love for god um I mean I have I've let him down many many times but um I don't know I even as hard as things have been um right now and in the past there was just like when I wasn't living right there was always something that was like a void like an emptiness that I couldn't really explain and it's like once I uh once I built a relationship with God it's like it completely changed it wasn't like I was following a religion it was like my personal relationship with God so honestly that's what what's kept me is because love I'm so awkward right now so if just I'm gonna be rambling you're fine this is a podcast we gonna have talking on a podcast too many podcasts ask anyone actually there's only like two in the message no like in general there's a lot of podcasts about and everything yes there are are so God has kept you in the message and it's about having relationships so what does having a relationship with God mean to you maybe compared to the um what the rest of the world or what does having a relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ in this message I'm gonna later for asking me all these questions and putting me on spot now what you volunteered for this I said I might and then I realized like okay well I'll be home in time you know Mom said uh my mom said this that is a great testimony thank you for being candid relationship with God is key um what was your question before that though the one where I started rambling oh you're fine it was it's not rambling it's a podcast you can have talking on a podcast What specifically in your life how would you define your relationship with God what does a relationship with God mean to you oh my God because she said it was compared to religion so you know religion is dos and don'ts and you know don't eat bacon on Saturdays or whatever people do in the world what is relationship I always see bacon on Saturday I'm just kidding um oh my goodness I don't um all right let's go back to that one ask me something different okay Mom did you mean to request to be in this live video was that intentional just go to make sure yes might accidentally I don't know okay okay what's an insult that you've received that you're proud of an insult do you say insult insult yeah I mean like for instance for me someone told me I quote brother brandham too much or I quote the Bible too much or whatever or I ask or I pull the God card too much um and those are actually compliments so they thought they meant as insults but I take them as compliments personally or do you listen to too many tapes good consistently too much whatever so what's something somebody meant as an insult but you you you actually took it as a compliment or maybe maybe like hypothetical you don't have to think of a specific situation so so like if someone told you a certain something you'd actually be take it as a compliment rather than a insult um there there was someone I don't remember what it was but um there it was Bor lent asking me told me that I talked about God too much in my lives or um just in general and I was like thank you I don't know I just talked about God too much interesting too much and I was like okay well why why okay why do you wear skirts okay um I think you're Bor I think you're borl talking about my testimony aren't you maybe little not really okay um I okay I wee pants I wear pants until I was 22 and I was fine wearing them I would even go to church camp and come back wearing pants I'm ashamed to say again um but one day I was getting dressed and I put on pants and it felt really wrong and I was like what is going on right here and and so I put on another pair another pair and I was like oh my goodness what's going on so finally I dug around and found a skirt that I only wore to church or around my grandparents and I put and I was like huh and ever since then I have not had the desire to wear pants and I just I took some scissors and cut up all of my pants I think a couple days later and I love wearing skirts wow that's great so something in you just said no not anymore God literally just God literally just took it away took that desire away um and I'm really grateful for that and I don't um someone did ask me if I did kind of miss wearing pants or miss the convenience of it and I don't know not really um I mean I think where is it's just as easy you have to be I mean you have to be really careful cuz you can't really find sometimes it's really hard to find modest skirts so you have to get creative yeah still sell sewing machines and stuff I guess I can't so to save my life I really can't well not so interesting so what would you say to someone that like a girl that's struggling with like why do I have to wear skirts and they want to wear pants as someone who actually has worn pants for more than two-thirds of their life but changed and God changed them what would you say to them um okay for me personally I think of wearing skirts as especially the kind of skirts that you're supposed to wear modest um I think of it as covering and just I don't know the only thing I can think about is Modesty I mean I can't I can't give a specific reason like oh you have to wor you have to wear skirts um because they have to come across that I mean God has to take that desire away I mean I can tell them I mean I can tell them till they're I'm blue in the face and tell them you need to wear skirts but but you can you're so you're saying that off this feel like what I feel like you're G kick me off it's only happen once and you're not even close to that at all I don't think I'd ever kick you off no I don't think you're capable of such cruelty oh you're fine so you're saying that you know you can't force someone you can't just tell someone not to ultim has to come from the inside out yeah you you can't you can't tell them you can't tell them oh it's more a modest to wear a skirt you could tell them that you know it is that women in the message are supposed to wear skirts But ultimately I mean God has to take away that desire because if not I mean you can wear skirts but you still te you still deep down you want to wear pants so that desire has to be taken away that's right that's right so I was going ask you about your testimony but I'll ask in a different way okay do you this is a direct question but it's a good one okay do you believe you have the Holy Ghost oh my goodness I honestly right now um oh I'm gonna hurt you later [Music] um okay I am I'll ask it in a different way what is having the whole what if if I were to say someone has the Holy Ghost because you know that's the whole point of this podcast is what do you mean by taking things that we say in the message a lot that I think a lot of us don't truly understand as well as we should people coming into my you're gonna have people coming into my account and slaming well it depends on what they mean by Holy Ghost when I say to someone have the Holy Ghost what do you mean by that what does that mean to you exactly what is having the H Holy Ghost mean to you for me um yeah for me it's feeling like you have that for me it's having that peace in your heart for me it's like um I don't know how to say it I want to say it but I don't know how to say it um um it's just having like that know feeling that know that you know that you know that you have it um and also also I mean even though you do backslide it's feeling more convicted after you did and wanting to come back yeah it's um I mean I I mean I've been around the message my whole life but here's the thing this is the first time in my life I have ever um Wanted I've never wanted a relationship with God so much before other than now so the question the kind of questions that people ask I can't honestly answer right now um now H what's different about now cuz now um the Bible has actually started to come to life to me um I would be in church and um he would be reading from different scriptures and I would try to find him and I couldn't and I would get discouraged by that and I was like I don't understand anything in this finally I just kind of had to force myself and I was like um well not really for myself um I got baptized a couple months ago and um I than I needed to H had you gotten baptized before or I have the first time I got baptized um I was eight or nine years old and I wasn't supposed to be I really wasn't supposed to get baptized that day CU mom didn't have any clothes for me or anything like that um but he was finishing up the last person I was like Mom I want to be baptized and she's like we don't have any well of course she didn't she didn't question it she was like okay we don't have any clothes or a towel or though and I was like I don't care I want to be a baptized and um I remember just balling my eyes out even that young and just wanting that Rel relationship and then it seems like after that a couple years after that I went through um depression and just a really really really really dark time but when I got baptized um this last time it was some something was different it was like I would like I told Mom I um I told Mom I was like I feel like the Bible is actually starting to come to life to me and the more I read the more I pray the more I yearn to get close to God the better I feel so I can't say um I mean I can't exactly give a direct answer of what you're asking but um right now I'm just I'm trying to live right and I'm trying to do right and [Music] um I don't know I just doing the best I can I mean I'm not I'm not perfect I don't claim to be perfect perfect I know there's stuff I've done in the past that do not want to talk about but right now it's still very very new to me I mean I've been around it my whole life but it's this is the first time that this is like a personal thing with me but also it's um but yeah like I said um I don't know why I'm so nervous I'm like sweating doing great by the way I'm not so not it's a mental game on this live if you say you're not doing well then we'll trick your brain but you're actually doing really good this is awesome good no because my heart is pounding brother Trevor Ean the one that was just the the one that was just on by the Trevor Eman who's preached all over the world on the uh on the chat just said wonderful glad it's taken on a personal nature he's been on and we actually did a whole episode about how do I know I have the Holy ghost I just I feel like being asked these questions I feel like the worst center in the world now and it's just it's kind of oh thank you no seriously but I mean like brother brandom said that Satan can beat you around the stump on your feelings it's not by feelings it's by faith in my opinion this is this is me personally the worse you feel about yourself the better because Satan doesn't get against you and try to attack you because you're doing something bad in life is because it's something good you're more dedicated to God right now than you am I true am I right in saying this that you're more dedicated to God now than you've ever been in your life correct so Satan's going to attack you harder now than ever before and he can manipulate your feelings to be any way he wants them to be it's not by feelings it's by by faith it's got nothing to do with feelings so when you got baptized why did you get baptized I mean I got baptized when I was seven when I was 12 and when I was 13 so I get the whole you know getting baptized multiple times thing so so why did you get baptized again what what made you do that um I'm trying to think um I I decided that I wanted to be baptized and this was like when it was starting to get really chilly um I decided that I wanted to get baptized when after I started reading the Bible more after I started praying more um after I started wanting to get a closer walk with God I was like something in my heart just said okay I need to be baptized and um it's is actually a great story um it's actually neat my little cousin who was eight got baptized the same day um just I don't know something in something in me just it's like I was reading the Bible and I was praying um and I was trying to just speak more positive and get as close as I could with God and I was like I wouldn't call it like sealing the deal I call it like I just needed I needed that reassurance I'll just say that um something in my heart just said I needed to do it again and that being baptized this last time like I can't even describe how amazing it felt because I felt like the old me was just like shedding off and I'm I'm so so ashamed of who I used to be but I don't know every since I got baptized it's like everything started changing and um God's just the more the more I read the more I pray the more real he is becoming to me and he's not just someone we go to when we need him but I mean how could you not how could you not love God someone that has literally loved you you and was there for you and is there like whenever you leave him he's just like welcome you welcoming you with open arms like come here my child it's I mean how could you not that's right Philippians 1 and6 says being confident of this very thing that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ so I would say that you didn't begin the work to get baptized and to uh all that God began that and he can finish it and then in Acts 19 and 2 Paul says unto them have you received the Holy Ghost since you believed so you're not it is an instant after you receive the Holy Ghost and you know what you can feel right now those are feeling that it is God and you know like brother uh Trevor eeman said in the comments he said but now it's personal and not works it's something that's different something that is changed and it's not works you're not supposed to feel it's religion like when I hate when people call it a religion it is a relationship yeah I once told the everything you know s good all good but tror you me I asked to Camp I felt like I wasn't dedicated enough and he said well how much tape listening or reading your Bible would you have or praying would you have to do before you feel dedicated enough and there was no metric I could put it on he said David I have a relationship with my wife but do I do I mark on on piece of paper told her I loved her did the dishes sweep the force whatever else he said no because I love her and so you know it is a relationship so like it's not a as far as you're thinking do I have the Holy Ghost do I not that's the I believe that that's not the right type of thinking the right thinking is have I met God at his conditions like brother Bram said did I make meet God's conditions I was repented was baptized correctly and then you receive the Holy Ghost as long as you repented you're BT correctly then of course you will and you know it's uh God brings that to pass and I told a friend of mine who was worried that they wouldn't um they didn't have the Holy Ghost because they're still making mistakes in their life and I said it's not a fleshly work you repented baptized and now God brings that to pass it's a gift you don't earn it you don't deserve it you don't feel like you actually you feel like you can't get it the more unworthy feel you feel you're the person that deserves it the least yeah and like I can ask the question who is more saved in heaven um let's say Paul and brother brandham or the thief on the cross is there one of them that looks more holy to God no not at all we're all born in sh shape iniquity so like you know that Satan can tell you oh you don't have like no God is the one that's going to give it to you or he already has depending but St the point you already met God his conditions now you just don't need to worry live your as I told friend of mine just live your life and don't ever worry about it because you did your part and God always does his that's awesome just awesome it's really good matters this holy this message this Holy Ghost is a great thing and it's a relationship not a religion yeah also I realiz I've been highlighting a whole lot more and I'm actually in the process of reading the entire Bible so in the back of it has a prompt and it's like um read these scriptures and um but I realized that um like it's just every word just like kind of pops out like especially if it fits your situation I'm like oh my goodness and I'm like taking my highlighter and going like over and over and over like my entire Bible and like I don't know it it's incredible like it's it's incredible how like what God can do in your life when you let him that's right brother Trevor says yay read the word I know I've been trying um it's like used to it's like I would read my Bible because I felt like I had to now it's I do it because I want to and I love I love taking my highlighter and just going over every like every scripture um every scripture every word and just um and I also have like a note taking bubble too note note taking bubble whatever you call it too yeah um there's aure there's a scripture in Proverbs that say that they that sew in tears shall reap in Joy well defitely cight so no it's not you it's um it's oh my goodness it's just it's just bringing up God in any kind of situation I'm like oh my goodness like he's so amazing yes why do you believe in the message [Music] oh simple answer um because I know in my heart that it's real yeah short sweet and I don't know if it's answer you wanted but no I I want you to be honest from your heart I that my then I said because it's changed me more than anything else ever has everybody wants to do things their own way but this changes more than anything else anything else and questions guys thoughts comments concerns the people on this live you guys can ask questions to Faith um this is just the beginning brother bam said that Satan's got a Punch coming so wherever you're the weakest at wherever the Satan gets against you the most that's where he's going to try to punch you that's just what he does and every gun is trained on you now but greater is he that is in us or greater to that is in me than he that is in the world so here's a good question let's see someone asks what is next for you sister what do you mean next what's next for you in this in this life now what you think is next what I don't know I don't know how to answer that okay if God if God appeared right in front of you I want at some point ask you what do you want majorly to happen next in your life what would you ask him and I can answer honestly yeah whatever you want it's a podcast that's what we're here for what do I want basically yeah if you what what's next next you know like you there's uncertainty but you can God comes down from heaven and says hey what do you want next what if you could ask have anything right now what would it be in your life something honestly the main the main things I can think about um is an even closer walk with God and also um a Godly marriage yeah it's always a good thing and what do you think you would need to do you know to get that right now I'm just waiting and trying to improve myself and doing the best I can praying for my future husband yeah um have you been like oh I'm not gonna imagine that you already done you're I think you're I know you've went through some really hard things in your life and I think that all of It prepares you for what God wants and uh I think God works things out according to his own timing and uh well here's here's a question okay you've been around the message and then the message and I think say for message kids in in particular we can be raised in the message or know about it know the right things to say the right things to wear it places but what's the difference between someone who's acting like they're in the message like a make believer and a True Believer oh my goodness that's actually an e really easy question and I'm GNA think about how to answer it first of all um I don't think i' feel comfortable calling anybody a make believer um I mean like I see it now I'll see people do whatever they want and then I'll see them post again and it won't be I'll just say it's not ideal um but I believe that kind of question like a make believer to me is someone that says like oh I go to church every Sunday you know I wear what I'm supposed to wear I dress modest you know I'm good you know um and a True Believer also they believe that they're fine but a True Believer is one that knows they're not not without God not without that relationship um usually usually you can tell it's someone that we talk about like how bad they are how um how much how much they've sinned and like they'll some of them will be up and honest with you saying that like I know I'm not perfect but that that's where God steps in yeah has your uh from Anonymous person has your recommitting to God changed the relationship with others um it has actually how I've lost uh boyfriends over it I've lost um a couple friendships over it but [Music] um I mean that was just God removing them from my life anyway and it did hurt um it still does hurt I do part of me does still miss those friendships but I can't I can't be around around that kind of stuff anymore I just I just can't I mean I'm not saying that I would do the stuff I used to do talk about the stuff I used to talk about but for me it's like putting your like you wouldn't go back to where you got sick in the first place so you just you got to move on even though it does hurt and you will lose people you'll lose boyfriends You'll Lose Friends you'll even lose family in some cases um but it's a really sad thing to say but it's true it's true and it's all worth it so one one way I would describe it is someone who is fake versus someone who is genuine so and some people are very keen to uh to KN that intens of of this somewh not how would you tell the difference between someone who is a real believer and a fake one maybe a make litter how in person like speaking to them how how would you how do you think someone can tell the difference I thought you were GNA answer that question I don't I mean I've seen it for myself you know I've seen people who I knew grew up in the message and they still claa to be a Christian but you just see stuff I don't want to talk about that you're fine I feel bad I feel like I'm judging and I don't want to oh it's if I tell you if you're if you're uh let's seeus asks since committed to God have you made new friends I have actually um there was um there's only there's only one I can think about but I mean I go to a very small church so it's hard for me to um I mean there's no one I can really connect with with um but yeah I'd say I'd made some pretty good friendships since since that that's great my mom says even even having to not stand with family is worth the cause of Christ that's right and uh see so between fake and real I mean I'd I'd say one difference is it's an interesting question it's a good question see it's hard hard it's aing question because you'll think about it you'll think about it and I'm like oh you know if I was asked this question you know this is what I'd say I get on camera and I'm like crickets oh well that's what I was going to say something about when you said oh I don't want to judge anyone if you're speeding down the road 30 miles an hour over the speed limit and uh please yeah it's fine H you all right can I send you a hug through text I can't move you can sit down hug I worked twice today and I'm so stiff I can't get up now um okay you go give him a hug and come right back I don't want to move what are you doing I'm so stiff it hurts everything is sore right now I can't I can't send Advil through uh through a live video I'm sorry I tried to but it's okay um ha up is so like if uh if someone if I tell you you're speeding I'm in the car with you and you're going 30 over this speed liit am I judging you am I am I yes for very good reason um not exactly it depends on what someone means by judge but it's already been judged and the B says divide the word of God correctly in accordly of course so like I believe I didn't say judge you know I believe that you should take positive actions and Bo use them as positive actions and negative actions as negative ones and consistent negative behavior without repentance like the Bible says a heretic after the first and second admonition rejects so like if someone is consistently negative and not according to the scriptures it's not uh anous says it never gets old hearing how life comes back to a Christian I don't know what you mean by that Anonymous it never gets old hearing how life comes back to a Christian can youas that rephrase that please is he talking about like certain subjects go back to huh I don't know I'd say like um you know if someone's wearing pants and you tell them about and you show them in the scriptures where woman should not whether pertains to a man man to a woman are you judging them no it's already been judged by God you're just showing in the scriptures very clearly how it's been judged and also the Bible says know you not the saints of God shall judge the earth now if I start telling you hey that strand of hair you shouldn't have that strand of hair down coming down because it's my opinion that you shouldn't have that that's different now if the Bible says hey don't cut your hair but you do and I say hey you're a Christian here's the scripture that says don't do it why are you doing it you're judging me no I'm not it's already been judged yeah that's true yeah but it's good and becoming a Christian is a great thing and I'm really happy for you that you're um coming back to it Anonymous says great test T not of God dealing with someone and then hearing the spirit's call yeah it's uh you know the call you away from family away from friends and uh it's all worth it I think it's all worth it for the cause of Christ because people that want to be with you will stay people that don't will leave will make time for what they want to make time for there's a reason why fast food restaurants are so popular it's because if someone wants a Big Mac what are they gonna do they're going to go to the store and get a big M if someone wants to be in someone's life I know that's a strange analogy but if someone wants to be in your life nothing's going to change it I know even Rel even if they didn't they weren't a Christian but you were like if they really wanted to be in your life they say oh I'm GNA stay no matter what and that is true in some cases but in some it's like nope so let's say someone is in a position maybe similar to you where they're not certain about what they believe and they're thinking maybe maybe I should get baptized again or maybe I should rededicate my life to God how would you know or what would you tell them for them to know whether or not they should try to rededicate their life to God okay can you say that again slower sorry someone I put a comment in let me see okay let's see uh Leah shefield your ti you're talking of the difference between fake and True Believers is it your place to tell that is what I'm saying even true believers do wrong even fake believers do right I'm saying that repeating scriptures is the place of the bride of Christ in the church book it says that the bride is the final voice to the final age and that anyia son or daughter of God takes the word of God put I'm sorry I'll be right back go ahead time how long are you going to be gone a second a second okay we wait for I don't know elevator music of some sort playing in the background I don't sing or I don't uh do sound effects are you serious what I was elevated music it was I thought it was appropriate got my phone sorry hold on you know what's up sister welcome live let's see someone someone says Leah Sheffield you're talking of the difference between fake and True Believers is it your place to tell that is what to tell that is what I'm saying even true believers do wrong even fake believers do right that's correct and I think that it is the place of the believer to compare the actions of people to the scriptures and then question those negative actions it wasn't you know it's a if you're if you're you know with your friend or whatever and not doing something according to the Bible and you show them hey brother you're in the message right oh yes of course I am what why did you cut your hair the scripture says not to or brother why are you um let see problem with the guys why are you uh why are you wearing just such tight clothing all the time you that's not a appropriate thing and you know it depends so like if someone's clearly not going according to the scriptures and it's a negative action you pray for them and you do your best for them and you know the question really wasn't for a a term of like speaking negative about someone else but it's a speaking about the action the consistent actions of someone else and the way that they show it in their life according to the way that they live and you know I have PE I have people that I know of that you know we we love them we have Grace for them and we pray that they'll get better but I'm not going to trust them very much because of consistent negative behavior that was the point this between fake and true a fake believer they just they cannot say I was wrong they can't they they won't put a church consistently that they want to break every law that there is and um you know it's a a c leadership says but would you call that a fake believer or just simply not a Believer at all I wouldn't call anyone anything I would call negative actions negative actions and positive actions positive actions yeah I don't think we should I don't think we have the right to call anyone a Believer or nonel especially a non-believer because you don't know what they're going through you don't know you know you can see on the outside like okay say they post things that aren't ideal to to your eyes you don't know what they're feeling you don't know what they're going through you don't know like I mean you don't know they could be they could be struggling and they could I mean you don't know they could be um they could be literally at the altar balling their eyes out you know praying for repentance yeah I feel like I've totally messed that up I am so sorry no you're fine a sister says make Believers know how to play play the part it's an act they are good actors but eventually someone's True Colors show through at some point and that that was the point of the question it wasn't to say it wasn't to call someone a fake believer but it was to um you at one point were a fake believer and then God changed you I believe that now you're a real believer and it was really you know asking about your insights into how does how would I know if I'm a real believer or or if someone else is like brother Trevor says Pharisee versus Publican I don't wait what I don't understand I don't understand that reference brother brother Trevor I'm sorry if I supposed to I'm trying to see every comment and it's hard you're fine okay I can't see it unless it was pinned I can't see it yeah but it's a it's a major thing to let's see my mom says uh I really enjoyed your testimony sister Faith thank you for being so brave tonight sharing God bless you all good night good night Mom love you um brother TR say oh yeah I thank the oh God I'm not like this Publican let me find the scripture have to add kgv at the end I know me too let's see uh two men okay went up in the temple pray the one a Pharisee and the other a Publican Pharisees stood and prayed with himself God I thank thee that I am not as the other men are extortioners unjust adulterers or even as this Publican I fast twice in the week I give tithes of all that I possess and Publican standing AAR off would not lift so much as his eyes into heaven but smoted upon his breast saying God be merciful to me a sinner I tell you this man went down to his house Justified rather than the other for everyone that exalteth himself shall be aeed and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted am good night everyone yeah good night but the CH says I tithe mint and I'm the Man spiritually but the Publican good night Anonymous so um yeah it's uh here's always a a temptation to turn it into you're not a Believer you are whatever that's not it the real question is just like sometimes people can get into a point where they're fooling themselves and believing that they're actually real Believers or they're well I say all the right things I go to church when I'm supposed to and I wear the right things and I maybe we'll listen to a couple tapes every now and then but until that life comes in the inside and you're the a different person from where you were three months ago versus now yeah you know until that life comes to the inside there's no change well I think okay um even knowing me like how would you like could you I mean you've known me for a really a pretty good amount of time so wouldn't you like what would you say like would you say that I'm still or like you said I was a fake believer and I was you know at one point but how would you say that I've changed any of course um I'd say of course what's up Lei ji Canada hello I mean it depends on what someone means by a fake believer or a make believer but you know I believe that God was working on through all the time I would say consistently through the years you've always you know I've never heard you say negative against the message against God you've always tried and God has uh you know been with you through all those times you know it's a um someone says faith I see that change in you that's awesome it's a change of who you are wa wait wait I'm missing all these comments Joy Jerry Jam that's uh sister jerich Mills there is a change inside what I was saying really is that a lot of people Len me for a while sorry you're fine a lot of people can put forth the image of being all okay when we're not and you know it's a it's an inward work that God does and I would say one evidence of someone who's really trying versus someone who's not is their uh attention to detail to lon's the the the newest the most important drama that they can attach themselves to instead of just forgetting forgiving forgetting moving on to the next thing um sister Jerica says you will keep growing in your Christian walk well that's great you know I've never heard you speak this passionately about um God ever I know and one of the things is like being distraught and like I'm not enough I cannot do this and crying on a public platform where talk about God uh I don't think anyone's done that yet on this platform that I can remember it's really good my brother Trevor got really passionate but he didn't cry yeah that's a that's a new one so it's well I'm a I'm a crier anyway um especially um I mean I've always had um I'd say even when I wasn't living the way I was supposed to I always had a yearning for God or um like that I don't know how do you say that I would say one major thing is living for Jesus is living for others if someone constantly seeks to bully others or to embarrass others or never really um change themselves but just are always seeking to change everyone else that's an Evidence of something that needs to change everyone is not oh a fake believer a real believer we all need to work but some people just don't acknowledge that they do need work brother Trevor says nope didn't cry is that the new standard y brother Trevor I'm sorry you know she uh sister Faith had a more uh you know more flamboyant and uh what's the word uh enthusiastic response so sorry kidding ra is the word what raw raw it's like raw emotion raw raw doesn't no it's like raw no it's like vulnerable vulnerability and I'm not saying like anyone else that joined the live you know they weren't sincere that's just because I'm crying doesn't mean you know doesn't mean anyone else is less sincere but Trevor says I I shall Endeavor to do better super the Trevor crying next I didn't mean to no I didn't mean to make anyone feel bad no she did great it was one of my favorite moments on any of these lives so it was it was awesome it changes lives and I'd say one of the evidences of the holy spirit is seeking to reconcile rather than to cause more drama people love drama they love it because there was times that in these lives for instance people joined because it's a great testimony it's a great time other times they joined because they like the drama and it wasn't that's not a great reason to do it you know unfortunately if we have a positive live like this I'll get 10 20 25 people but if there's some big drama I'll get a hundred and that's really too bad I wish that we had the the majority of people want to come on when we're talking about things that matter but people want that's kind of that's really sad honestly yeah not say anybody a bad person but like it's just something to think I've never tried to say you are a bad person I tried to get people you know to ask themselves like why is it that the drama is so much more popular than a testimony live or you know why is it that you know or should we consider what we're listening to like when I talked about Lauren and all that and people thought I was saying she's the devil I said no I think we should consider what we oh I've been thinking about that a lot lately um I can't even get myself to listen to her music anymore really you know why tell me more you know the main reason why she was serving alcohol at her concert a Christian concert she was serving alcohol serving alcohol at the Christian concert yes you can just tell you can literally tell how she used to be how songs used to be and how they changed I feel Vindicated this is great [Laughter] no awesome I can't I can't even get even the songs that I loved um yeah she has a lot of people yeah do still help people but the the the very fact that she served alcohol at a Christian concert gives me the it like I no no no Trevor says rubbing David's Doctrine the right way exactly brother Trevor perfect you that that's that's perfect I that I've literally been thinking about that so much lately and I'm so glad you brought that up because you know I think a lot of her had someone disagree with me on that and then later on I watched something that they were making and then they were saying the exact same way that I was some of their songs are really good and they're very inspiring they are and my point was is that be yeah appreciate the art and appreciate the song sure but be careful because if it draws you in enough then you start looking to them as your example and then you watch your music video and think well why is it okay for her to wear a tank top and shorts and I have to wear shirt exactly I can't as a Christian guy I can't watch the music video without I'm not going to watch it no let's see um Leah Sheffield says I quit listening to her after I saw an article about her going on the Ellen show and saying her songs weren't even Christian I well apparently apologized apparently she apologized for that a couple years later okay after made millions of dollars off of her songs but you know the point is is like Ray bolts is an incredible singer and I really appreciate him but he became gay later Ray bolts he wrote wrot The Anchor Holds no yeah he's gay sorry but Bible says gifts and Kongs are without repentance so I can appreciate his music without looking at the negative things he does it's just like Lauren deel sorry you just not known that so sorry but gifts and callings with without repentance you know who I bet was probably really good at preaching and and maybe even was a blessing to people uh Peter before he betrayed uh before he denied Christ and didn't he have the Holy Ghost yet Judas probably a very very very good preacher you know but gifts and callings are without repentance blew my mind dude I cannot I I don't have any words for that unun like me personally and people took it as me saying it's all me personally when before I preach or whatever I'll listen to music that's primarily from message people because I it just helps me more but I I think you know God used a donkey to talk so that's that'd be perfect just depends on what on what helps people but you know that's awesome I'm really happy that your life is changing for the better that's awesome of course you come on two months ago you get baptized again God's changing your life I encourage you that you know it's it's really it sounds counter to but it's true the worse you feel the more spiritually God is in your life and you know there's times when I uh when I um when I have I'm really in a bad mood or I feel super sad and then I uh and then um I realized oh well this isn't a feeling that God gave me I'm not supposed to feel this way I don't have to yeah we got glasses Faith welcome back to the chat now you can see all of us better I know there you go my blue light glasses if I wear blue light glass I'd literally have to go up to the screen and I'm like oh I see brother Trevor says message youth.com music for the win I did not know that existed by the Trevor so awesome there we go learn something new every day and Leah Sheffield said Faith he left his kids and wife because he said God made him that way Ray bolts did to B gifts and calls are without just break my heart all over the place place right now hey his music is still busting it's still really good music I think people can listen I mean I still like that Laura that uh Lauren digel song trust in you I've always loved that I haven't heard that one you good her new stuff however you I don't know I think the I don't know I think the fame has just got into her head honestly it's really I think you know I think people should be careful with it I'm not saying and I've never said don't listen to that I believe people should be careful consider it again you know well I mean everyone has personal opinions but just I just I can't get myself to listen to her stuff anymore I see a lot of it would also have sometimes to do with culture other than like a doctrinal thing it might do have to do with culture some people like southern music Northern music music from other African music just depends like I I tend to I tend to love the music that black people create for like worship songs a lot more than the ones white people do a lot of the time I just do you know maybe that's just a cultural thing who knows I feel sorry that like Jerry just joined he's like what in the world is David talking about what isn't David talking about putting me on the spot like this which you haven't asked any more questions you're just kind of I'm kind of glad I don't know why I said anything okay let's see here no no no no no no you're now you're fine go ahead there you go Jerry yeah of course you joined at the worst oh Jerry I uh been playing a lot of Chess that's been fun do you play chess Faith No I got Jerry I got from like 500 to 700 on or 750 on on 3 minute Blitz Games it's a ton of fun I play the Kings Indian with black and the Italian with white nerd F you're the one with glasses and you're short hey okay fine I wear I wear glasses I GNA come up with something I couldn't see Jerry says black trishes usually have musical talent that isn't afraid the raise the roof yeah that's right Jerry uh Jerry says that's awesome man keep the grind up yeah I'll keep trying I need to some rapid I beat my brother Josh in chess so was a great guy after him beating me every other time we've ever played like three times so it was very was very nice oh hold on I need some shades so I can hide your negativity Thomas says what's wrong with wearing glasses because Thomas wears glasses thank you I would like to see the com no I can see the comments um but if I don't wear my glasses for a long period of time I get really bad headaches so see sister Jer Mill says there was a songwriter of hims who attempted many times to commit suicide and eventually ended up in a Mental Health institution all right okay we're gonna end the live at 11:45 so we've got 18 minutes okay all right here's a question I'm curious about how have I changed through through the years let's see 10 years ago me versus now me H I can't okay that's a hard question because we like we would talk on the phone but we weren't talking like I mean there was a time we were talking consistently um but before this we haven't like been we haven't really talked so it's hard to say but I will say this you just seem more you just I mean you were always passionate about God you are like from what I could tell but it seems like you're more rational about it now if that makes any sense interesting I guess more wise in ways of saying things yeah you just become more what that I'm not going that's just just because I've done a lot of stupid and I've learned from or tried to learn from it yeah used to you used to drive me crazy not gonna lie see kid people are asking go ahead no redeem yourself no it's all good hey I glasses I don't know anything apparent you're supposed to know everything but those glasses are shaped a little weird so I mean someone's people two people have asked in the chat what's Faith's favorite food it said we want answers so what's your favorite food um I used to be tacos and now honestly it is sandwiches I love sandwiches that's like saying you like food you know oh okay okay fine what kind of sandwiches my favorite kind of sandwiches like have turkey tomato like pesto like when I think of sandwiches I think of like a really good like gourmet sandwich almost so when ione's like what's your favorite food I'm like sandwiches okay what's your favorite kind of sandwi basic tacos too I absolutely love tacos I just love food in general like I can't do you like spicy food I I should yes I love spicy food you like spicy food why why CU it's awesome cuz it's awesome it's delicious like I literally have a big bottle of hot sauce I will put that on everything except for dessert except for that to try it on like eggs yes why why would you do that to your eggs they they were innocent they didn't do anything to you I have a bottle of hot sauce I put it on every taking them from Mother wasn't enough you had to put them in hot sauce too I did my grilled cheese in it too every some people have tomato soup I get a bowl of hot sauce what what it's can you even taste things normally any yes I love jalapeno peppers I love hot sauce I love um let's see yeah I just love spicy food not a big I'm not a huge fan of sriracha though unless I'm eating like Chinese or something but brother Trevor says hot sauce brother Trevor says hot sauce is fine on eggs Mitch elderson says putting hot sauce on everything is all we do West wonderful and Jerica says y I'm from the south okay Pizza how do you do your pizza what how do you what do you put on your pizza what do I put on my pizza um I like I like stuff like chicken Tomatoes um they already have tomato sauce on it you put extra tomato on a pizza why would you do that do you get your ice water with extra ice on top of it like on the side I don't like ice water so you don't I like don't like ice water I don't like you like ice but not water or water but not ice see like water but not colder water so you stop liking water when it reaches a certain temperature your waterest okay that's fine Thomas says he likes his uh uh his tomatoes with crust tomato sauce and cheese that's a good way to be okay do you put pineapples on pizza or are you a psychopath okay um I really don't like pineapples on Pizza very rarely I get um this pizza from Domino's and it's jalapeno bacon and pineapple and if it's a lot of pine pineapple pineapple if it's a lot of pineapple I take it off but very rarely I'll get a bite with pineapple and I'm like H you know but it's still not my thing okay have you ever tried a bun have you ever tried it with a bunch of meat though have you tried with a bunch of meat um I do like meat I'm not a huge meat eater though well you're like what 5'2 so of course you're not a huge meat I'm a huge meat eater but you're a short meat eater with okay seriously I called you a nerd once and you're like you're bashing me for my height hey it's a good thing it's a positive thing you know like I bet you can even see your feet in your driver's license picture Okay that was good you can't but that was good I'm not a Smurf well I mean you're talking to me like I'm some kind of Smurf or like relationships with Legos what your have relationships with Legos if you fall off the bed will you die probably can you do back fli underneath the bed I follow so many things I trip on air are we really asking me this question air yes so you're like not air air I always trip I always run into something I am the most awkward human being ever I'm socially awkward so yeah also I'm very AC youve done a live for the past hour and 10 minutes because you're socially awkward with probably over a hundred different people tramming at one point you guys how I'm not even looking at the camera I'm just like you know the camera's looking at you I I know that helps right um so pineapple and pizza by itself it's dumb or with ham it's dumb it overpowers the Pam but if you get it with pepperoni bacon sausage and extra cheese with pineapple it makes like a sweet salty meaty flavor I'm not a big saus on Pizza though me neither but with if when it's with other things it's good like we've you had I'm not a big sausage person H interesting people are wanting us to switch over to bible stuff they're done with the food no no no no no we're talking about anything and everything we're talking about relationships marriage our walk with God food apparently exactly food uh barbecue chicken pizza have you ever had it yes I love barbecue chicken pizza but only um I like it I like it with the pan crust like the pan pan pan pizza and I put banana peppers on it it's so good and hot sauce can you even taste the pizza you can just tast sauce yes you can you're evil okay if I could carry around a bottle of hot sauce which I've actually tried it did not go well what happened oh there's a story there's a story what happened with the hot sauce in the bottle no it wasn't a bottle it was packets did they explode in your purse or something no they I got them out and they exploded on my skirt I've had I don't think God wants me to have hot sauce because every time I eat it I always spell it hey you are the Spice of the Earth right you know you took that a little too seriously there salt not spice I spill like I've I cannot tell you how many times I've spilled hot sauce and I think it's God telling me do not eat it but I love it I can't help it we don't really eat hot sauce it's more of a liquid you kind of drink it or you know eat it it you drink hot sauce so like the stuff and fireproof you just do that in real life yeah not a whole bottle but you know occasionally if I have hot sauce on the side and I want to finish it off I'm like do you want me to get a bottle lce oh you're fine see barbecue chicken pizza I usually take off the onions and I add extra cheese and onions do not belong on Pizza no here we we can agree what's up brother Andrew Clover welcome to live so sister Faith what's your middle name Nicole I already knew that but people on the live didn't know that oh okay I remember things remember we were in the same we were in the same skit like what was it 11 years ago at byc yeah 11 years ago oh what do you think about me with facial head I don't know if you seen me with a beard yet um yeah you actually yeah I prefer the I prefer the beard honestly cool I better with the beard some guys look better without it you like fullard the full beard on me it looks pretty cool let me show you I'm go with no no I have I have I've seen pictures like there you go that was no don't do that again dude if you want to find a wife don't do that again what being serious so girls just don't like beards at all no I'm not saying well on some guys yes it's no just just don't just believe me okay fair so we've got seven minutes what is the meaning of life we'll end off with an easy one I'm kidding uh I'm kidding let's see here no I'm answering that here's a here's a good question if you could go back and give your 18-year-old self one piece of advice what would it be um never settle you mean like don't let your relationships never settle never settle that was the first thing that came to my mind well what about when people are really desperate and they're alone and no one wants or they feel like no one wants to talk to him um I know that feeling I've had that feeling but never settle cuz there's been a couple relationships that I've been in um that I was just accepting the bare minimum like um like they would talk to me occasionally like I could tell they were losing interest which is fine but um like they were like the bare minimum to them was like them giving they're all and I settled for it I was like you know what you know you're my boyfriend I'll that's fine you know I love you anyway but no this is the first time in my life I'm very serious about I'm very serious about my dating life right now because it's not really much a dating life it's finding that potential partner and it's not just going to be it's not just going to impact you it's going to impact your future children it's going to impact everything so you've got to be very very very careful yeah Sheffield says if you weren't happy with yourself you won't be happy with someone else that's true too yeah because if you if you um like if you have low self-esteem and if you if you just genely aren't happy you're going to make that the person miserable you're going to be miserable and it's just not a good thing mainly work on yourself first M to make yourself intoy really if a guy or guy if a guy or girl really wants to be in your life they will make it happen you do not have to force it that's right right you want the dream wife become the dream husband exactly that's another that's another way that's become a dream husband that's another way of saying the question isn't how do I find the right right ones it's how to it become the one that someone else wants and it's not just that it's also be you know fall in love with Jesus because if someone is looking yeah if a girl looking for a guy or a guy's looking for a girl and they haven't fallen in love with Jesus Christ yet they won't get where they won't really get too much places and live I mean literally it in my heart like I know this for a fact it takes three to make a marriage work and there's also God's perfect will and there's God's permissive will and even though say you are dating someone say you get married say God God told you not to be with them and you still had some like you I feel like I mean I know I feel like that person would go through a very very hard time and I I know that personally because i' I've seen it but also it's kind of hard because if you're really lonely you are going to settle I mean that's you know it it might happen yeah like oh well you you like me I like you you know let's let's date but I mean I've actually turned down proposals so how many two two well Le sh says one thing I always held to was a no in God's perfect will is better than a yes in his permissive of course mhm there are it it does make me sad when people settle for God's permissive will though I mean that's something I can talk about oh my goodness until I am blue in the face honestly because that's something I'm very very passion yeah because I I've seen it happen with so many family members I've seen it with friends I've seen it this just makes me sad yeah so let's see here we only got a little bit left got two minutes so what is a tape what's a tape that you would recommend people to listen to that would really help I don't know the names okay okay you can ask me that on the next live okay I I don't I can't think of any names by heart what's one question I do I can think of one but I just don't know the name of it so just ask me that next time what's what's one question you wish I had asked you and how would you have answered um honestly I thought for sure you were going to ask what um like I was talking about wanting a Godly a Godly wanting a Godly marriage but I thought for sure you would like kind of nitpick like okay then what makes in your like in your perspective like what makes a Godly husband or what quality would a man have to have I thought for sure you would dig into that as much as I've talked about that I thought for sure you dig into that but you don't I mean you know I just come back on tomorrow sure all right sweet we can talk about this stuff tomorrow and think of other stuff you want to talk about too um thank you for being on it's an honor and privilege we'll see you tomorrow guys than